The past 4 years have all been leading up to this moment. About 30 exams and who knows how many assignments have been completed. Hundreds of hours spent in lectures pretending to make notes. And now it’s just over. It’s one of those moments in life where you think you should know how to feel, or everyone tells you how to feel, or even the movies have told you how to feel, but you just can’t put your finger on it. Emotion comes at you from every direction, and your brain desperately tries to comprehend. Unless of course, you have the emotional range of a teaspoon.
What are those feelings?
Well for starters I feel a bit nauseated, but that’s probably stress related. Obviously I feel on top of the world, knowing that my degree is complete. Every time I think about it I can’t help but smile, and I will probably be like this most of the summer, just enjoying that feeling of completeness. I feel sad about all the things I will miss. The list would go on forever. I feel jealous, bet you didn’t see that one coming, of all the people just starting out or even carrying on. I wish I could just tell them to make the most of every last second. I feel excited and nervous for the future that is to come. I just hope it doesn’t come too soon.
Who have I met?
I have met computer scientists, engineers, musicians, physicists, geophysicists, historians, mathematicians, chemists, biologists, linguists, nurses, doctors, psychologists, and whatever you call people who study law or English. I’m sure that list doesn’t even cover all the students, and then there is everyone else. These include lecturers, a rabbi and his family, and so many more. They were all different shapes, colours, races, religions, cultures, nationalities, genders, ages, and they were all awesome. Okay maybe not some of the lecturers 😛
What have I done?
Well the first answer to that question is I don’t remember. No, not because I was drunk, I rarely drink alcohol, but because the whole thing just seems like a bit of a dream now that it’s over. I mean I attended lectures, went out with societies and saw friends whenever possible, oh yeah and got some work done at some point. However now it just seems to have all blurred into one. In my course I made an app that can recognise people’s faces and made a computer program that could play poker, albeit not very well. Outside of that I watched a lot of tv, cut myself a few times (once while washing up a fork) and only managed to start a fire once when cooking!
What have I learnt?
Well obviously computer science stuff, lots of which I have probably forgotten by now, but I achieved the main aim of learning more about how computers work. I joined the magic society, so guess, what I know some magic tricks. I learnt how to play poker a bit better, through lots of practice. I also learnt how to live independently, which apparently involves more than just learning how not to set fire to stuff. I learnt a lot about other subjects too, but mostly I would say I learnt about myself. I learnt a lot more about how I think and see the world, and to be even less afraid of being myself. This blog is proof of that. Finally I learnt how grateful I am for everything I have and to try and show that gratitude wherever possible. So on that note, I just want to say thank you to everyone who has helped me get here, especially my family and close friends. Remember that there is always something to be grateful for, however little we have.